In Whom Do I Trust?

by Alison Hall

As I mentioned in my last blog, since the beginning of the year, my husband’s health problems have taken up an awful lot of my thoughts and my prayers.

I have been most fortunate to have known my David since I was fourteen and a half. We were engaged on my 19th birthday and married 4 days after my 20th birthday.

David was the one with the faith, I did not make any decision with respect to my faith until I was well into my 30s when I finally accepted Jesus as my Saviour.

In 2013, David was diagnosed with cancer and for seven weeks in November and December that year, he went through chemo and radiation in an attempt to kill the cancer cells. The tumour was removed but life for David was at times very painful.

At the beginning of this year we decided to find out what was causing the extreme pain and we were told that it was all due to the effect of the radiation. Something needed to be done.

As people of faith, we prayed. “Father Please”, “Jesus-You took this on Yourself when You died on that cross.” “Holy Spirit come.” Father God, please intervene”

At times I felt like a whining child, sitting on her father’s lap, saying “but why?”

My beautiful sisters “in Christ” suggested we pray and we rebuke the evil one. I spent time on my knees beseeching my Heavenly Father for His Mercy, His Grace, His healing power in Jesus name. Sometimes I felt that I was actually giving Satan the glory as I blamed him for the situation.

After listening to some of my doubts and fears, a beautiful friend of mine asked me. “Alison, in whom do you trust?”

That really pulled me up and I suddenly realised that I really was not operating out of a spirit of faith but out of a spirit of fear.

The Chapel at the hospital is an amazing sanctuary. I could feel the love of God and the presence of the Holy Spirit in that place. So much so that after visiting David, I would go to the Chapel and I really did not want to leave. Hebrews 4:16 came to my mind. “Let us come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Through His grace and mercy, I realised that all I needed to pray was for God’s Will to be done. That realisation was very “freeing”. I knew I did not have to tell God what I needed Him to do, I knew that His grace is sufficient and God had this whole situation and David in His hands.

David was released from hospital on July 3rd, six weeks after major surgery on May 29th.

He still has a little way to go before full recovery but I know that our Heavenly Father will bring him to full recovery in His time and for His glory and we are so very grateful.

Alison's previous blog post is called "Plans" 

Alison Hall married to David for 46 years. Worked as Administrator at Gladstone Baptist Church since 2003. Registered as Qld Baptist Pastor in 2011 and called as Associate Pastor for Pastoral Care since 2016. Her prayer each morning is for the Lord to show her where He is working and let her know if He wants her to join Him in that work.



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